Filly's Favorite Poem 3/17/2009 8:36:46 PMThis is poem I wrote a few years ago about a panic attack and out of the hundreds of poems that I wrote this is my favorite one.
“Seeing Red”
Trapped inside this head of mine
The noises so loud it is impossible to think
I blink back the tears, once, twice, a third time
Finally I just let them fall free
The walls are closing in
I’m panicking, I’m scared
I’m hyperventilating now
I’m thinking oh shit is this the end?
Teetering on the brink of insanity
Fighting my way though my thoughts
The madness inside my head
I’m seeing red, I’m seeing red
Breathing frantically, shaking petrified
I stand, I turn, I attempt to run
There’s nowhere go, nowhere to hide
Just 4 thick walls with no life inside
I can feel my sanity slipping away
I’m fighting to hold on to it for dear life
The noises inside my head are loud
I’m seeing red, I’m seeing red
Danger, danger
You’re losing it, get a grip
I clutch my hand to my chest and breathe
I count 1, 2, 3
It’s too late now
I’m too far gone
My head is aching, the pain too strong
The panic attack still not gone
The pain subsides, my thoughts clear
The panic attack gone full gear
A moment to breathe, stop, reflect, what brought me here?
The moment just abundantly clear
I’m seeing red, still seeing red
© FRD 2007